I'm such a low life
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I had always tried to hold myself to a higher standard of thought, behavior, integrity, and honor. Those who know me, call themselves my friends, colleagues, and co-workers would have all agreed that I was a stand up woman who kept her cool when faced with challenges and obstickles. I lost everything that a person could loose last year my freedom, my business, my animals, my marriage, my step family, my home, and my little dog Sugar Baby who was my partner and child. And yet I held my head up high, stood my ground, and took my lumps..........checks and balance.........until last night!!
I am truly sorry for my reckless behavior.........I have never stooped to the level of passing around emails to injure a persons credibility or integrity.....I was asked permission last night and allowed my own words to spill upon a board that I respect and admire.
What you all think of me now, can be viewed as "consider the source", It was "all in good fun" or "WTF was she thinking"........I believe that ladder applies.
Do I keep files comprized of business transactions and personal pleasure........of course I do. The business emails are to keep the integrity of the BOI and shield myself from any "deal gone wrong" venue. Have I ever needed them to out some one for shady business practices? No, my business dealings have all been smooth and easy. Have I ever shared private conversations in a public place.......No...never....until last night.
I have allowed myself to digress to a person I no longer know or like at the moment. Am I being a little to melodramatic or hormonal.......no, not at all. I gave Bryon full permission to post those email's with out proof reading, my own words or protecting my integrity.
I have suffered through the humility of the Federal grand jury, and had my own personal emails from last year hacked and forwarded to my now ex husband. I kept my integrity and stood my ground then, however, my solid ground has become my own personal quick sand that I so rightly deserve.
To Denis Hultman........I am sorry for my actions, hind sight is 20/20, however, I still don't have the rights words at the moment.
To my so called "board of directors" I will never embarrass you all with the type of actions that were displayed last night. You each hold a special place in heart, that I will never allow to tarnish again.
To webslave, who I truly admire for putting up with the preschool of the reptile comunity.......I will never act in a manner that can discredit or harm, what you have worked so hard to achieve.........Like the BOI
Last and not least to Chamco.......although we agree to disagree, my actions were deplorable, have sunk to an all time low, and I am sorry.
To all the rest who were considering getting to know me, but now live with the fear of a private relationship becoming public.........it will never, ever happen again..................