Im angry, frustrated, lonely, sad and almost drunk, at least drunk enough to type into this green box to a bunch of people that dont even know who i am.
Why here? Cause maybe just one of you will understand what Im feeling.
Of course I already know the right answer, Im just unwilling to accept it.
I wasnt with him when he purchased fatso from a pet store for $100 and a monitor. I met him a few months later. I called her a lil peeper because of the sounds she made, I remember looking at him and saying " you realize this is an alligator." That was 2 1/2 years ago. She is no longer a lil peeper. Shes 39 inches and gaining girth everyday. I love her. I talk to her, feed her, clean up after her and she has been MY responsibility since she has been here. I spend hours everyday with her. Everyday! I know her moods. I know when she is nervous, pissed off, hungry, just generally an alligator. I talk to her more than she talks to me but believe me when I tell you she does talk to me. rarely anything nice unless shes thanking me for food (really the thank you just means ive had enough as she turns her back on me.)
Would I have ever purchased an alligator. No, I wouldnt have.
The snakes, the lizards, the turtles, the furry animals that live here they are all mine, the only one here that isnt mine is the alligator, It is his alligator. I should let him have her. I just dont know how Im gonna do that. I dont want to do that. He left me right before christmas, just decided on that wednesday that he didnt want me anymore, no call, no nothing till a few days ago when he decided he wanted his things.(I gave him everything except her.) he moved into his own apt in a town that doesnt allow reptiles over 2 ft in length. still doesnt change the fact that she is his right? I know. I can think of a million reason why he shouldnt have her. Whats he gonna do with her? Stick her in a bath tub? In an apt? In town a town that doesnt allow her to be there? He doesnt even have time to spend with her. My mother says " are u really that attached to the alligator? " I say " her name is fatso and yes, Yes I am!"
Oh hell, I dont even know why im typing this, maybe im hoping someone will say Vic, just keep her. even knowing that she isnt mine. I have to keep saying that to myself. she isnt yours, just let him have her. Im fighting it, with no leg to stand on. She is his. Damn IT! Im sad!
Why here? Cause maybe just one of you will understand what Im feeling.
Of course I already know the right answer, Im just unwilling to accept it.
I wasnt with him when he purchased fatso from a pet store for $100 and a monitor. I met him a few months later. I called her a lil peeper because of the sounds she made, I remember looking at him and saying " you realize this is an alligator." That was 2 1/2 years ago. She is no longer a lil peeper. Shes 39 inches and gaining girth everyday. I love her. I talk to her, feed her, clean up after her and she has been MY responsibility since she has been here. I spend hours everyday with her. Everyday! I know her moods. I know when she is nervous, pissed off, hungry, just generally an alligator. I talk to her more than she talks to me but believe me when I tell you she does talk to me. rarely anything nice unless shes thanking me for food (really the thank you just means ive had enough as she turns her back on me.)
Would I have ever purchased an alligator. No, I wouldnt have.
The snakes, the lizards, the turtles, the furry animals that live here they are all mine, the only one here that isnt mine is the alligator, It is his alligator. I should let him have her. I just dont know how Im gonna do that. I dont want to do that. He left me right before christmas, just decided on that wednesday that he didnt want me anymore, no call, no nothing till a few days ago when he decided he wanted his things.(I gave him everything except her.) he moved into his own apt in a town that doesnt allow reptiles over 2 ft in length. still doesnt change the fact that she is his right? I know. I can think of a million reason why he shouldnt have her. Whats he gonna do with her? Stick her in a bath tub? In an apt? In town a town that doesnt allow her to be there? He doesnt even have time to spend with her. My mother says " are u really that attached to the alligator? " I say " her name is fatso and yes, Yes I am!"
Oh hell, I dont even know why im typing this, maybe im hoping someone will say Vic, just keep her. even knowing that she isnt mine. I have to keep saying that to myself. she isnt yours, just let him have her. Im fighting it, with no leg to stand on. She is his. Damn IT! Im sad!
