The above account was posted on RFUK, pretty sure the person who did it is posting here.. beating my wife..really??
Gregg M..I'm happy you love those Jags I hatched , seen you post on the forums that your Excited to have this new project!! Great Job getting those, enjoy!!
It's been almost 18 months..and I have been to hell and back!!
Whats unfortunate about this website is that it seems it really doesn't want me to move forward, there is no forgiveness and certainty no love here, at least not for me. Even know I haven't done anything specific to anyone of you, besides the things I've said or what's buried in the past. So I cant understand how you can get past it or forgive. I owe no-one. like it was before Jerry and now 18mnth later I still owe no-one. Jerry got his animals, there was no court order or collection agency involved, we got together and worked things out. I felt bad for my part so I sent him an extra 6,000 in animals, I didn't stick him with stuff he didn't want,I sent the best I had even my 1st purple superconda's, and other things he wanted, 19k for a 13k debt paid and I feel much better about myself. But honestly, I think it's only made some people more angry that I did this!?Why??
18mths ago I messed my hand up bad, no insurance. I had to have surgeries that had to be paid for upfront since the amount was too much, had to go to rehab the works..I went up to almost 300lbs, got sick and depressed..huge medical bills, was on a lot of pain medicine.. one thing I learned pain medicine + keyboard = disaster. And that's exactly what happened. Fortunately I woke up, stopped having my script refilled , lost weight down to 240lb and most importantly stepped away from the keyboard and focused on my marriage , my animals and what was important to me.. living. This website and others what people said about me, the ways it made me feel had me even suicidal at times.Yeah Rich imagine the headline " Snake Breeder Kills Himself Over Forum Abuse" I don't want to go out like that, but at the time I felt I could get back at everyone and blow up there lives too just like mine has been. At one point I almost did. I was loosing it.Honestly I got so bad that I felt this would "fix" things. Imagine the media firestorm I felt it would be glorious. Wow gotta love opiates..or the doc who works for the lawyer who gets you hooked on them like a drug dealer. So I left for awhile took care of myself, healed and kept myself away from places and people like this. I really hope none of you have to go through this.
I would like to be the 1st person here to admit there human..that I do dumb stuff pretty much everyday.. the other day I put the butter in cupboard..seriously I wonder how I manage to dress myself sometimes. I try everyday to be better husband to my wife, she has become so much happier now that I focus on us and not this BS anymore.
Today ..life is good for me..except for this one place that is stuck on what happened long ago. Listen, I'm moving on..keep blasting me, crucifying me etc..I'm moving on with my life. I know I didn't have the best personality before this mess either.. but today is what counts not yesterday.
I believe Brian from BHB summed it up best when he said this somewhere,it really stuck with me, something like: fighting in the forums is like competing in the special Olympics..you may win.. but your still "special"
I think I'm sick of being "Special"
Best Regards,
Justin Mitcham
ExtremeHogs.com