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The Heartache They Indore

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The Heartache They Endore

Hello,
I found this on another forum and I thought I would share it here.
I'm on the Board of Directors here at our local Humane Society and I'm going to print, frame and hang it in the lobby. you have no clue on how many people come in with pet's that are grown saying they are moving and can't take them, wanting us to find them "new homes." The sad part is only 10% of all animals that come in find new homes.
Sadly we don't have the room to keep all the animals that come in until they find homes, our space is limited and we only have so many runs. Puppy's and kittens will get adopted before adults thats just the way it is.
Then we have the people that don't want to take the time to bring their pets to us, they set them free on the street to fend for them self's, or leave them behind to starve.... and WE the shelters are the ones getting the bad name!! if everyone would would do their part and spay and neuter and be responsible pet owners we would not have to destroy so many wonderful lives every year.
What our staff goes though this every day, the heartache they endore no one could understand. their love for the animals is why they are there, they are not there to be cruel to them, they are there because they want to give them the best care they can in the time they may have left.

this is a link I got from that forum
a story follows.
http://brightlion.com/InHope/InHope_en.aspx


A Puppy's Story

"When I was a puppy, I entertained you with my antics and made you laugh. You called me your child, and despite a number of chewed shoes, and a couple of murdered throw pillows, I became your best friend. Whenever I was "bad" you'd shake your finger at me and ask, "How could you?" --but then you'd relent, and roll me over for a belly rub. My housebreaking took a little longer than expected, because you were terribly busy, but we worked on that together. I remember those nights of nuzzling you in bed and listening to your confidences and secret dreams, and I believed that life could not be any more perfect. We went for long walks and runs in the park, car rides, stops for ice cream (I only got the cone because "ice cream is bad for dogs," you said), and I took long naps in the sun waiting for you to come home at the end of the day.

Gradually, you began spending more time at work and on your career, and more time searching for a human mate. I waited for you patiently, comforted you through heartbreaks and disappointments, never chided you about bad decisions, and romped with glee at your homecomings, and when you fell in love.

She, now your wife, is not a "dog person" -- still, I welcomed her into our home, tried to show her affection, and obeyed her. I was happy because you were happy. Then the human babies came along and I shared your excitement. I was fascinated by their pinkness, how they smelled, and I wanted to mother them, too. Only she and you worried that I might hurt them, and I spent most of my time banished to another room, or to a dog crate.

Oh, how I wanted to love them, but I became a "prisoner of love." As they began to grow, I became their friend. They clung to my fur and pulled themselves up on wobbly legs, poked fingers in my eyes, investigated my ears, and gave me kisses on my nose. I loved everything about them and their touch --because your touch was now so infrequent -- and I would have defended them with my life if need be. I would sneak into their beds and listen to their worries and secret dreams, and together we waited for the sound of your car in the driveway.

There had been a time, when others asked you if you had a dog, that you produced a photo of me from your wallet and told them stories about me. These past few years, you just answered "yes" and changed the subject. I had gone from being "your dog" to "just a dog," and you resented every expenditure on my behalf.

Now, you have a new career opportunity in another city, and you and they will be moving to an apartment that does not allow pets. You've made the right decision for your "family," but there was a time when I was your only family. I was excited about the car ride, until we arrived at the animal shelter. It smelled of dogs and cats, of fear, of hopelessness. You filled out the paperwork and said "I know you will find a good home for her." They shrugged and gave you a pained look. They understand the realities facing a middle-aged dog, even one with "papers." You had to pry your son's fingers loose from my collar, as he screamed "No, Daddy! Please don't let them take my dog!" And I worried for him, and what lessons you had just taught him about friendship and loyalty, about love and responsibility, and about respect for all life.

You gave me a good-bye pat on the head, avoided my eyes, and politely refused to take my collar and leash with you. You had a deadline to meet, and now I have one, too. After you left, the two nice ladies said you probably knew about your upcoming move months ago and made no attempt to find me another good home. They shook their heads and asked, "How could you?"

They are as attentive to us here in the shelter as their busy schedules allow. They feed us, of course, but I lost my appetite days ago. At first, whenever anyone passed my pen, I rushed to the front, hoping it was you, that you had changed your mind -- that this was all a bad dream... or I hoped it would at least be someone who cared, anyone who might save me. When I realized I could not compete with the frolicking for attention of happy puppies, oblivious to their own fate, I retreated to a far corner and waited.

I heard her footsteps as she came for me at the end of the day, and I padded along the aisle after her to a separate room. A blissfully quiet room. She placed me on the table and rubbed my ears, and told me not to worry. My heart pounded in anticipation of what was to come, but there was also a sense of relief. The prisoner of love had run out of days. As is my nature, I was more concerned about her. The burden that she bears weighs heavily on her. I know that, the same way I knew your every mood. She gently placed a tourniquet around my foreleg as a tear ran down her cheek. I licked her hand in the same way I used to comfort you so many years ago. She expertly slid the hypodermic needle into my vein.

As I felt the sting and the cool liquid coursing through my body, I lay down sleepily, looked into her kind eyes and murmured, "How could you?" Perhaps because she understood my dogspeak, she said, "I'm so sorry." She hugged me, and hurriedly explained it was her job to make sure I went to a better place, where I wouldn't be ignored or abused or abandoned, or have to fend for myself -- a place of love and light so, very different from this earthly place. And with my last bit of energy, I tried to convey to her with a thump of my tail that my "How could you?" was not directed at her.

It was you, My Beloved Master. I will think of you, and wait for you forever. May everyone in your life continue to show you so much loyalty.

The End
(copyright by Sandi Guillemette)"
 
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Very touching , I have a dog [my best friend Bear] black lab and he will be with me till he breathes his last breath in my arms.
Sometimes I think I am too hard but your post has reminded me otherwise
 
Made me cry....very touching and unfortunately this happens way too often. :(
 
I did not read the story but I find it odd that a user on this forum sits on the board of directors for one of the largest lobbyiest against private ownership of animals. Take a look at the newest bill that was introduced by the Humane Society in Indiana. It is not only extremely broad but they wrote it in such a manner as to allow them to add animals to the prohibited list without notice.

They will never receive a dime from me for not only this but for COUNTLESS other reasons. Anyways, just some food for thought.

Griz
 
That story always makes me cry- but I am going to have to agree with Griz on the HSUS, they are trying to pass similar legislation here in Ohio and I will fight it every step of the way. While I believe some shelters and rescues are in it for the greater good, I don't think HSUS and PETA are one of them.
 
Griz said:
I did not read the story but I find it odd that a user on this forum sits on the board of directors for one of the largest lobbyiest against private ownership of animals. Take a look at the newest bill that was introduced by the Humane Society in Indiana. It is not only extremely broad but they wrote it in such a manner as to allow them to add animals to the prohibited list without notice.

They will never receive a dime from me for not only this but for COUNTLESS other reasons. Anyways, just some food for thought.

Griz


First if the Humane Society here ever tried to prohibited me or anyone for that matter from owning any animal I would step down in a heartbeat. that is the one thing we have NEVER wanted to do here, and it's something we don't agree with. not all Humane Societies have the same believes just like not all people have the same believes. I have my snakes Boas, Balls Pythons, Burmese Pythons, and Bearded Dragons, as well as Dogs, Cats, and Birds. I would not give up anyone of them for anyone I'm a member of this forum because I like this forum and I adore my animals. not that I owe you and explanation.

I do what I do there for the animals not for the people. and that means ALL animals 4 legs, 2 legs, and no legs. I don't lobby against private ownership of animals. I lobby against the cruelty to animals. if you love and care for your pets and you in no way abuse or neglect them then by all means have any and all you want.

You know it's funny I have been doing this 2 years and I have been thanking about stepping down, when you see what we see everyday for 2 years, the animals that come in beat almost to death because someone got made at them, or the dogs that the owners put in dog fights. cats that were Set on fire and left to die.... I can go on and on then we have people that put us down for doing something that is already hard enough.

Yes you have you @ss whips that want to prohibited ownership of some animals well I hate to burst your bubble but I'm not one of them. and I don't live in Indiana or Ohio so please take it else where.
 
Dream hun, I was in no way trying to upset you. I think that most people who are in rescue are in it for the right reasons. However when you have certain groups (and I was not saying your was) that are trying to put restrictions on or completely ban certain animals or breeds, that is wrong. Both PETA and HSUS have issues with pit bulls and have helped pass many laws in areas to ban them. To me that is wrong, but then again I love the breed and think it is the owners NOT the dogs. I know how heated things can get in rescue also, heck one group I was working with I couldn't anymore b/c of all the issues where people cared more about looking good than helping the dogs. There is no perfect shelter/rescue but I know lots of people who try for the animals sake and that is something to be proud of (yourself included).
 
Dream said:
I have my snakes Boas, Balls Pythons, Burmese Pythons, and Bearded Dragons, as well as Dogs, Cats, and Birds. I would not give up anyone of them for anyone I'm a member of this forum because I like this forum and I adore my animals. not that I owe you and explanation.


Yes you have you @ss whips that want to prohibited ownership of some animals well I hate to burst your bubble but I'm not one of them. and I don't live in Indiana or Ohio so please take it else where.

Just one more thought, even though you don't live in OH or IN I would be concerned as laws like this have a way of spreading and Burmese are on those lists. With the HSUS heading up these changes in our two states, don't you think that they will expand to others? You say you wouldn't give up your animals for anyone, don't you think those of us who live in the aformentioned states feel the same?
 
Dream, wake up and smell the euthanasia. The fact of the matter remains is that the same Humane Society you work for is still part of the larger corporation. The revenues that you help create go towards allowing these idiots to try and ban private ownership in the other states, whether you live in that state or not.

Passing the responsibility off by saying that I am just there to help the 4 legged animals etc, is a farce. While your intentions, no doubt, are probably 100% altruistic, the fact still remains that the very entity that you volunteer for is part and parcel to PETA and other fringe groups.

It's like saying, I am only the secretary at the abortion office so the blood of those babies are not on my hands. While your chapter may not participate, it's still a very LARGE part of the problem.

Griz
 
I'm not positive exactly how it works, but I *think* confusing a local humane society with the HSUS is an error. Originally they were all affiliated~ but I do believe that is no longer the case. The HSUS split away from the smaller humane societies some number of years ago. They will accept funds from anyone, and send out mailers with pics of sad puppies and kittens to get your donations.....but they do not send any of the money back to the local humane societies.

The Hidden Enemy HSUS
 
Ok I don't agree with a lot of what the H.S. does , but the facts remain the same . We [herpers and animal lovers] need to get involved and prove our hunbandry methods and captive breeding of rare animals is needed.
There is a meeting in Ann Arbor tomorrow and I plan to be there[they gave me an invite], instead of fighting these morons we need moles in to speak our peace and show them the facts as we know them not as they make them up to be or want them to be out of some missplaced benefit to the animals.
Instead of criticism lets get involved.
From what I see the laws are made by people that don't have animals or exotics, that is where we need to speak up. :iagree: .
Not trying to burst any bubbles but PETA HSUS and your local Humane societies[oxymoron there] will ALLWAYS be there.
 
Bob,
You are confusing the Humane Society of the United States with local humane societies or animal shelters.
The HSUS, our sworn enemy, does not operate, nor do they fund any local animal shelters, whether they have "humane society" in their name or not.
The HSUS is a money machine, and nothing more. They take in very large sums of money and use a large portion of that to pay their own salaries. They use another large portion to raise more money, and the rest is pretty much used to lobby lawmakers to pass laws to outlaw pet ownership. They provide funding for ZERO local shelters despite all the pictures of the poor sad puppies on their literature.

Some local animal shelters do indeed have Peta or HSUS sympathizers, but by no means do all of them hold those beliefs.
Just because the original poster sits on the board of directors of a local humane society in no way infers that they are working for or with the HSUS, since that organization has NO direct interaction or influence with ANY local shelters.
This is the very point we need to get across to people. Aside from the very occasional spay/neuter clinics the HSUS sponsors, not one dime of anyone's contributions goes directly toward helping animals.
The HSUS takes in in the neighborhood of 50 million dollars per year. The vast majority of the people providing those funds actually think they are helping animals when in reality they are not.

I completely agree with you in your dislike of the HSUS and Peta, they are our enemies, and there is absolutely no question about that. However, you are wrong in accusing this poster of being one of them on the sole basis of their being on the board of a local humane society.
Many many humane societies across this nation do a great work and very much deserve our support. They do not oppose responsible pet ownership, and should never be lumped in with the organizations which actively work against us.
It's our job as citizens of our community to determine the true agenda of our local shelters and determine if they are worthy of our support or not.
 
As for the original post I will say I really enjoyed it.
I'm a hard person, some would call me a cold hearted SOB, and not entirely without reason.
I love my dogs though, more than most people actually, and that story did indeed touch me.
I thank you for posting it.

I also have to mention, it's endure, not indore.
 
Clay, you certainly bring up some thoughts that I was not aware of. I always tied my local Humane Society with the HSUS. It only makes sense. I will do my own research this week and see if what you say is correct. If it is, then I will certainly have a change of heart. Thanks for the information.

Griz
 
Clay Davenport said:
I completely agree with you in your dislike of the HSUS and Peta, they are our enemies, and there is absolutely no question about that. However, you are wrong in accusing this poster of being one of them on the sole basis of their being on the board of a local humane society.
Many many humane societies across this nation do a great work and very much deserve our support. They do not oppose responsible pet ownership, and should never be lumped in with the organizations which actively work against us.
It's our job as citizens of our community to determine the true agenda of our local shelters and determine if they are worthy of our support or not.


Clay, your whole post right on from where I stand. While I will not support PETA or HSUS there are LOTS of wonderful rescues and shelters out there and I truly hope people will not condemn all because of a few. As for shelter/rescue workers, it takes a special person to handle what comes with it, but saving a life sure helps.
It all comes to education again, spay and neuter, research the breed before you commit and don't support the puppy mill industry. ALL animals should be a commitment, not the throw aways that they are all too often. This is where I see many reptile owners excelling vs. dog breeders. The people who are in it for the money thankfully dont last long in the reptile world as far as I can see. If I am correct, there are more reptiles in homes vs. dogs and cats yet the overpopulation problem is with the later. (Wishing I could put my words as eloquently as others, sorry about the rambling).
 
Clay,

First I would like to say Thank You. I couldn't have put it as well as you did, I have been fighting this battle for 2 years and it's seem's no one gets it. some how I think it would have been a never ending battle for me. you just made it much easier, for that I Thank You!!

We in no way work with nor do we have any interaction of any kind with the HSUS or PETA. We are a non profit origination and every penny we get we work for. We have fund raisers and we get so much from the County every year, and then we have what the citizens may send us. we have been known to operatate in the red due to lack of funds. but we have always been there for the animals no matter what.

We have what we call a ARF fund set up for sick or injured animals ONLY so if we get one in we have the means to take it to the vet for treatment. this fund goes for nothing Else EVER, it's called the Animal Relief Fund. We DO NOT have a vet at the shelter and when ever we are in need of one we like every one out there have to pay for it.

I have taken home many animals and taken them to the vet and cared for them my self so the shelter would not have the cost on them. all I want to do is to get the importance of SPAYING AND NEUTERING you pets out there. and when I saw this I said why not.

Now like every one here I buy my reptiles and I will I'm sure continue to do so. but if the chance come up to adopt one thats in need you bet your sweet butt I will be there. I have adopted all my cats and dogs. as well as my beardies.

Anyway I didn't want to start any fights I just wanted to get a point across.

~Robin.~


I also I know it's endure, not indore ;) it was a 15 hour day at work and then this, I was looking for a title for this post and I saw where I put there in the post, I did copy and past. it was to late to change it once I hit submit. :rolleyes:
 
Clay Davenport said:
outlaw pet ownership.

I am curious as to whether anyone thinks there may be some merit in this. I personally believe that there ought to be restrictions on the ownership of certain kinds of animals: I think no one within city limits should be able to own animals such as cheetahs or elephants.
I think the restrictions that certain states have on various bugs like Japanese beetles are appropriate especially for agricultural states so that if the bug is particularly destructive it might be OK to restrict private ownership.
What do y'all think?
 
I have more of a problem with law makers passing broad, poorly written laws that can be applied to various things rather than the ones you mentioned, Lucille. It all depends on the situation for me. Things like, say, banning a leopard gecko just don't make sense in my books.

PS: Up here Japanese Beatles are a HUGE threat to things like raspberries, blueberries, etc. I hate those damn bugs.
 
As soon as you walk into my local animal shelter, there's a sign stating that they are in no way connected to the HSUS or PETA. It also notes that if you give money to the local shelter, it goes directly to the shelter to care for the animals. The HSUS/PETA doesn't care about animals or the local shelters, they care about money (as has already been stated). As such, the HSUS does not give anything to local shelters, nor do they care what happens to the animals inside those shelters despite their statements about loving animals.

This is my dog story and it's kind of long, but it's about my dogs so I tend to gush on about how cool they are (and I might have typed it elsewhere on this forum either last year or the year before)!

All of my dogs, save for 3, have been shelter dogs. We got our first dog, a German Shepard/Collie mix, that we named Sam (short for Samantha and a cat my parents had before my sister and I were born) from the local shelter. She was a puppy (around 4 months) when we got her and we kept her until she died from cancer at 15 years old. She was only supposed to live for maybe a year after her diagnoses, but we think that she survived for nearly 6 years longer due to her extreme veggie habit. Have you ever seen a dog that would rather have a carrot than a piece of beef? That was her, carrots and cabbage were her favorite foods! When Sam was 5, we got a Pug (that we named Pug) from a pet store (she was being sold there on the owners behalf - it was a puppy mill free store). She and Sam were best buddies, but after Sam died she lost her own will to live and died shortly thereafter. A year or so after we got Pug, we also picked up a Shih Tzu from the same pet store. Muffy was kind of screwy: she hated to walk in the middle of a room and would hug the walls instead, she used to bark at closets, she loved to sleep on my head and I'd wake to her licking my hair or my toes and she used to hump Pug a lot. Unfortunately she died from a blood disease at age 10 (Sam died the day after Thanksgiving 1998, Pug died a few days after July 4th 1999 and Muffy died in late 1999).

After Sam died, we went to the local shelter looking for another dog. They had a "6 month old Shepard mix" that we fell in love with instantly. She was found abondoned on the side of a road in the middle of the city :angry: We took her home and kept the name that the shelter had given her: Cassie. It turns out that she is a Rottweiler X Chow X Greyhound (a slightly odd mix) and she has to be the smartest I've ever known! Sam was smart, but Cassie is amazing. It was commented that she would have been an excellent choice for a rescue dog when she was younger. She's a great watch dog, but is weary of strangers and does not seem to like men (she has no problem with me, but she still won't trust my grandfather).

A bit later we decided to visit a friend of my mothers because her dog (a Siberian Husky) had puppies and she wanted us to take one. Unfortunately when we got to her house, we discovered that the woman does not know how to care for her animals. Her Husky was too young to have puppies, she had another dog that had another batch of puppies, despite the fact that she was barely a year old like the Husky. There were a bunch of cages in the backyard and each cage held an agressive Pitbull. On the way out there was a mass of fur hiding under the front porch and upon further inspection, it was a very scared dog. The woman told us that it was a Chow someone had given her daughter for her birthday (sigh, dogs don't make good presents, especially for people that can't take care of them properly! :angry: ) and that we could take it if we wanted. The dog had a huge gash under her eye where one of the older dogs with puppies had bitten her when she got too near them for comfort herself (I wanted to scream at the lady, but was able to restrain myself). I did not hesitate and picked the dog up and stuck her in the minivan. We took her straight to the vet, but there was not much he could do for her eye since it was mostly healed (funny, I had the dog for less than an hour and had no problem paying a $60 vet bill). I named her Babsinskamoo (or baby for short, but she responds to both). It turns out that she's not a purebred Chow, but a Chow X Samoyed mix :) (she does the "Samoyed Smile" when she's hapy). She's still here and is doing well. I've noticed that she is very loyal, loves the cold weather and loves to sit in snow (she digs into the snow and makes what looks like a half-open igloo). I'm thinking of putting together a sled contraption to see if she'll pull it around because that's something Samoyeds do (maybe Boo will let me place him on the sled!).

Next we got Sam (named for Sam the cat and Samantha the dog :) ). We originally went to look at the dogs in the shelter, but were unable to leave w/out him. He's a Golden Retriever X Chow mix and has a neatly purple and pink splotched tongue. He was a little over a year old and very friendly. He's very sweet, loves other humans (he once jumped into a neighbors car and would not get out until we had the neighbor walk into our house: he followed :rofl: ) and is fine with any dog. One curious thing is that he did not bark at all. He would make other vocalizations and sing (yep, sing!), but nothing made him bark until he saw his very first rodent ( a squirrel I think). Since then, he occasionally barks with the others, but the assured way is to expose him to outside rodents (he barks at them as if his life depended on it).

The last dog (so far) was a Pug in 2002. A local woman that breeds Pugs from time-to-time had some available and we bought the skinniest one (the others were oddly chunky). Cassie took it upon herself to raise him, so that's why he's a lot like her (they share many of the same mannerisms). They're the best of friends while Sam and Babs are best friends themselves (they spend all day lounging right next to eachother).

We're moving to Oregon at the end of this year and all four dogs are comming with, despite that my grandfather and great aunt (they're living with us temporarily) think we should leave them behind. Behind where? They're a part of the family, maybe even moreso than my grandfather and aunt are (we're not close). How could anyone even think that a pet cannot come with? Another friend of ours told us that we should look into dumping all of the dogs except for the Pug and maybe a "big one". She mumbled somethign about how hard it was going to be to find a house with four dogs. Hard for who? All we need is a fenced yard and they're not hard to DIY if need be (we put the fence up around our current house to contain the dogs). I don't understand how people, even those who have dogs -3 of them too- can be so insensitive and suggest that we need to "dump" one, two or three!!!


lucille said:
I am curious as to whether anyone thinks there may be some merit in this. I personally believe that there ought to be restrictions on the ownership of certain kinds of animals: I think no one within city limits should be able to own animals such as cheetahs or elephants.
I think the restrictions that certain states have on various bugs like Japanese beetles are appropriate especially for agricultural states so that if the bug is particularly destructive it might be OK to restrict private ownership.
What do y'all think?

I'm in agreance on that too. Certain animals don't make pets and there should be restrictions in place to make sure that they're not being kept. Elephants and cheetas will never make good personal pets, especially with inexperienced keepers. In a perfect world there would be some way to differentiate between a Burmese python an a tiger etc, but unfortunately too many people in charge have the wrong idea about the wrong animal for the wrong reasons There's also the problem of irresponsible people giving a bad name to every pet owner, even the responsible ones. Don't forget the case of stupidity (or plain old ignorance) as the reason why ferrets are illegal to own as pets in California (Google "why are ferrets illegal in California" for an interesting read).
 
Now it's the Heartache I ENDORE...

Now it's the Heartache I ENDORE...

On Jan, 30th I lost my husband in an explosion and I'm feeling so lost, his things are still laying where he had left them around the house and I have yet to pick them up because I just know he will come in saying why would you move that you should have known I would be looking for it.

You would think with all my animals I would have more then enough to keep my mind off things like this but I'm here to tell you it's not the case. with 10 snakes, 4 dragons, 4 BIG birds, 4 cats, 3 dogs, a ferret, and a chinchilla. I still have time on my hands to watch for his truck to pull up. or wait for his phone call. I have time to call his cell phone and hear his voice. the things I have been doing for the past 13 years I find it hard to just stop doing.

I don't know why I'm here telling you about this I guess maybe I feel if I start writing about it maybe some how it will help make it... I don't know
I guess maybe sitting here crying every night is getting to be to much for me and I hope this will help some how, maybe I'm loosing my mind and if I write about it I can find some peace some how. I don't know.

What I do know is this man was the love of my life and in a second he was taken from me and now I'm so lost, so heart broken as I sit here and write this I'm crying and at the same time thinking is anyone going to understand any of this or even care? but the frame of mind I'm in I don't really care.

Oh well just something I had to do.... Thank You all for letting ramble on.
 
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