LOL! So how long is that pride supposed to carry me through the fire? How long am I supposed to keep on fighting with those "individuals"? It's like trying to fight army ants with a toothpick. If I were just fighting the bad guys, heck, I could carry that torch for a LONG time. But not when the good guys are bashing me as well. THAT's when I had to step back and try to figure out WHO in the world I am really fighting for. And I just could not come up with a good answer. The TRUE turning point in my attitude was after reading a supposedly hidden thread on another site where members here (even some forum mods) trounced me and others rather viciously. When this issue came to light and the facts laid bare, even then an entire group of members here followed them off to another site, pretty much telling me bluntly that they AGREED with those slurs. Well that told me quite a bit about a significant chunk of members here. That was when it really hit me that my fighting and caring really was a wasted effort. Seriously, why the HELL should I care about people like that at all? How many more feel the same way, cursing my guts while taking what they can from this site at the same time? Probably more than I would really care to know about.
But in any event, that event was when my fire went out. That was when I lost my pride in what I thought I was trying to DO here. And now almost a year later, it has not returned, and is doubtful it ever will. I don't hold any animosity towards those people, just a deep bottomless disappointment in people I had thought better of at one time. Yeah, and probably one hell of a chunk of my own naivete got dropped onto the pavement as well. But who would have thunk it that a handfull of "good guys" could have done what all the bad guys in the world couldn't?
It wasn't long after that when I took down the paid requirement for posting on the BOI and rolled back the rules. Yeah, I made some lame assed excuse about the Chris Johnson thing being the reason, but that was just the public face for it. Now, well just to hell with it.........
So if the BOI can help you, more power to you. If it just entertains you, then more power to you as well. Just don't expect me to care one way or the other any longer.
Oh well, stick a fork in me please, I think I am done.
But you DID ask..... Now I do wish you hadn't. It's a scab I hadn't wanted to pick at.
Sulu, take the helm...........