Sammy and Debra, please take this fight to the "hell forum" on this sight.
I have stayed out of this thread until reading Jens post about putting her snakes down. Every emotion from sad to frustration. I too had no desire to be in my snake room.
Jen I have been there myself, the hope for negative testing, the timing of when to put them down, and I did not have the pressure of the internet that you have.
My animals were all put down in July of 05, I held back 14 animals all babies and yearlings, my then husband asked me for a divorce on 9/13/05, my home of 10 years was put on the market 10/1/05, papers for divorce were filled 10/5/05, my home sold 11/29/05, 12/10/05 I moved into my own apartment, the remaining snakes went to the vet, straight from my home, 2 tested positive and all were destroyed at the vet, 12/26/05 all caging at my was destroyed, heating lighting, cages....everything that I had worked so hard for was gone. And to top it all of on 12/28/05 my little min pin of 10 years Sugarbaby was hit by a car and killed. I only moved a mile away from where my home was and she was just trying to go home.
Jennifer, I swear on my life that everything you are feeling and going through right now, will get better. I don't know how I would have gotten through that time in my life had it not been for my friends on this site. They sat on the phone with me, we talked in fauna chat together, and they along with my best friend, held me together when my world as I knew it was blown to bits.
Yes I bought all new caging, heat tape, lighting, probes, and animals. It was strictly business and the new snakes were considered "employees" It has taken 2 years to actually find the "love" in what I do.
Hang in there Jen....it takes a bit of time, but I swear it does get better!