He didn't solicit me, he elicited me. He did not offer me anything in exchange for sex, like he did with others. Which makes me feel even more dumb, that he tried to get it for free when he offered others free geckos and whatnot. If I can get the old messages, I'm sure there will be something in there that's incriminating enough to prove I'm not lying. But please again keep in mind I can't be lying about something I never said.
I never said Chaz raped me, I said anyone who had been raped knows how difficult it is to go through the justice system, because it is like being raped all over again- and this thread is actually starting to feel the same way. I don't like being called a serial rape victim or a liar, it's made me cry, honestly you people have made me cry a lot. I understand that my wording may have been difficult for people to understand when they come here looking for heated discussion, but I certainly didn't deserve more doubt and blame than I would have received if I had actually decided to go ahead with reporting him in the first place.
That being said, I don't consider myself a victim, since the only thing I lost from my relationship with Chaz is a couple months and my faith in humanity. I am angry at him, more so now than I ever was before I knew he was doing much worse to other YOUNGER girls, but I am not angry that the relationship ended at all, and am glad to be rid of him romantically to be completely honest. Those rude remarks were more to offend him, and you can't deny others here have made much worse remarks toward him than I did. I recall threats of castration and bodily harm..? Just saying.
And while our past relationship is somewhat relevant, given that he did pick me from the reptile community and used his knowledge and power as a big breeder to seduce me, I do not think that this is the right board to discuss the ethics of rape culture and sexism, because while having sex with him would have been statutory rape, I don't believe anyone actually physically had sex with him, so that isn't really relevant.
Yeah, I showed Chaz my naughty bits over Skype, and I cheated on him after multiple attempts to break it off. If that makes me a slut, so be it. But I am not a liar, or a prostitute, or an attention whore. I'm just one of the women he used for his sick purposes, and while he didn't rape me, he is still a messed up human being and deserves to go to jail for his crimes, if not against me, against the other girls and the reptile community.